Over?

July 16, 2009, a relationship that started on a wonderful day to only end a little over a month later. I have only been in love once, and honestly I knew I was falling in love with you. At least my mind said so, but no, my heart doubts it immensely. I have been in so many relationships, and I always made it out like I was so innocent in all of them, but I knew I had my problems. However, this one hurt the most because I read the world ‘fling’, and it made everything stop.

Do I want to be with you again? If you asked if I loved you would I say I do? Would I even think of taking you back? Probably not, because I have been used before, and the fact you thought us as a fling broke my heart entirely. Well, maybe it didn’t break my whole heart, but it did your portion.

I knew you didn’t trust my judgment. I know you didn’t think anything of it, but I knew my suspicions were correct. Junwon was going to invade, Junwon was going to get you to like her, and you know what- I am going to let it happen. I am not going to fight for love, and I am not going to wait for you any longer. I am just going to stay your friend.

I have good senses on people, and I know what can make me happy. The sad part is your aren’t the one I can do it anymore. Six months of loving me and wanting me so bad didn’t mean much in the end, and ironically enough you questioned your love and want for me. I warned you how I was, and I don’t think you were weary enough to them.

Now we are not on square one, but more on square zero. Straight from the very beginning-

I don’t imagine a relationship, and I am not driven to jealousy when you post about Junwon or talk about that. Really, I have pushed away from those tangles that had me and I will find something happier for me.

It won't be you.